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High School Art Project #1 "Self Deterioration"
High School Art Project #2 "Paradigm Shift"
Heart and mind
When you are born
you are given two things,
heart and mind.
From little age you are told:
"Be careful with the heart,
it is a fragile thing. "
"Sharpen and strengthen your mind,
for it will serve you right. "
But no one tells you,
how fragile mind can be,
how easily it breaks
and how tough one's heart is,
how hard it is to get inside.
No one talks about the way
they work so closely together.
No one could say
the truth about their bond.
No one tells you
how it hurts when one breaks.
Just one thing they let you know:
"Be kind. For it is your shield and your sword."
But how can that be,
when your arms are trembling
and your eyes are filled with water?
Passion is the primary addiction of the artist. It is what will cause her/him most of its questionning, anger, pride, it shall be the adrenaline needed to feel alive. And once you get addicted... there is no turning back. Life will never taste the same.
Glorieuse-Demise (Yes I do quote myself
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Theres a part of us thats no longer here,
and one that never was.
but when you feel it,
it makes you ache.
for better or for worse.
Fades each day,
yet never goes away.
The ability to forget...
has been forgotten.
I am falling.
So, what do I do on my free days?
I wake up late, search for a cup of coffee,
Make myself a plate easy breakfast and then
It’s a day of selfcare.
I think of the books to read and shows to watch
I lay down on the grass and look at the sky.
I paint my nails and I curl my hair
Then bunch them and use a ribbon to tie.
Sometimes I look in the mirror and I can see
See a void but then it disappears
Then I think of having some tea
So, I put the pan up and sit on the chair
Waiting
Waiting
Waiting
The water boils over
I feel all drunk
Even when I am sober
I am sitting and sitting and sitting
I can see the sun rise and set and rise and set
The clock tics toks tics toks tics toks and tics
And I lie on my bed and lie to my self
The void in me is rising and burning and singing
The void is hungry so, its eating
Eating me and the soul and the light
Selfcare maybe is lying in bed
Feel a little dead
But I just stay and stay and stay
Then there is the night and then the day
And then something clicks
I thinks the void is full, it had its share
It is going back in and there is this light
This light, a crack on the wall
I find myself standing tall
I look at the clock oh its been just four hours
But then my cell phone beeps
‘hey there you’ve been missing from the outside world for a week’
My eyes readjust, my mouth is dry
I reach for water, there is a pan with burnt tea leaves
There is a cup of coffee half drunk
I look into the mirror, there is ribbon tangled in my hair
Well I guess this is the end of a day of selfcare
and believe me, I can feel it in the air
I am falling again.
My classpects (all aspects)
I was tired of redoing the search everytime my Extended Zodiac results or just my own conclusion changed. So I did it for all the aspects to get that part out of the way.
Witch of Doom Mage of Void Seer of Light (Same as Rose) Prince of Time Seer of Breath Knight of Rage Heir of Mind Thief of Hope Seer of Blood (Same as Kankri) Page of Life Thief of Space Sylph of Heart
“I will never fall in love with him,” my mind vows.
And then my heart murmured, “My dear, when will you realize you already have?”
A.M. {you can’t fool your own heart}
false gods ruling ur life
& the power of focus
hi everyone! today I wanna talk about how we create false gods in our lives, how that harms us, and the importance of directing our focus! this is a topic that has been on my mind recently as I think it is foundational to everyone who wants to work on their mindset, mental diet, and manifest better life outcomes.
table of contents
1. ways we create false gods in our lives
2. the harm of false idolisation and victimisation
3. the power of focus and attention
p.s: I do believe in god but I believe this post is still helpful from an loa/spiritual persective. so, with that being said, let's discuss!
✿ part 1: ways we create false gods in our lives
I'd say there two main ways we do that: making ourselves smaller and making others bigger.
when we make ourselves small, we victimise ourselves becoming paranoid about the world and thinking that others have this special advantage over you. I see this a lot in the loa community where some believe that others have some kinda special knowledge and power that they don't posses, when in reality it is just them being more disciplined, more consistent, and more trusting of loa.
it could also be about feeling insignificant in the face of your circumstances. like thinking that the 3d (physical reality) is what is ruling your life and not ur mind. also believing in conspiracies and secret society theories or ideas that are designed to instill fear within you, making u think that someone is out there to get you.
as for making others bigger in your mind, this happens a lot in celebrity and fan culture when you start seeing them as more than human. also when you idolise other people's attention (for example: analysing others behavours around you and ruminating over negative meanings of it). and also you pay wayyyy too much attention to other people’s lives like your peers and worrying too much about competition, not realising that there's no competition when you are your own life's creator.
essentially, when you start worrying/thinking too much about something or someone outside yourself, you have formed a false god in your mind.
✿ part 2: the harm of false idolisation and victimisation
so what's the harm in that? well first, it is such a waste of time and energy on something that won't serve you. also it will only create unnecessary worry and anxiety within your mind. you start to see yourself as powerless and your life as out of ur control. you might also engage in behaviours that cause you to lose yourself in the process, such as people pleasing.
your life will become vapid and shallow since your focus is shit that really doesn't matter. you will also start to associate this great amount of omnipotence and power with something other than god (if u believe in one), bankrupting you spiritually. like you are some insignificant string being pulled along by someone more powerful than you or god, or by circumstances that you believe you cannot change.
small tip: whenever you start to worry too much remind yourself that you are starting to create a false god in your mind. this works wonders for me to quickly disengage from unhelpful thoughts and remind myself of my power.
✿ part 3: the power of focus and attention
obviously, if you practice lao, you know that what you focus on is what you create. if you dwell in other people's lives or opinions, you're then not dwelling enough in the life you wanna create. focus is like a currency to what you wanna see play out in your life: what you pay attention to is what you prioritise and is what you will get more of.
in my case, when I started focusing on the life I wanna live, that's when opportunities, successes, etc. started flooding my life.
and that also applies to what you consume cos your mental diet is hugely shaped by your media diet. basically, what you consume (see, hear) and create (say, think) creates patterns of belief in your mind, materialising in reality.
ofc, you can always engage something outside of you that entertains you but don’t lose sight of your own live’s vision. really consider whether what your're watching is adding to your life somehow. make sure you’re using it, not it using you.
a big example of that is social media: you can either curate the perfect fyp to see posts that make you happy, remind you that your dream life is possible, serve as loa tips/reminders or you could consume content that is designed to suck you in and make you angry, anxious, or hopeless.
you decide.
another related term to focus that I wanna talk about is presence and how it is essentially the key to living a happy life.
when you focus on what truly matters, you find excitement and passion again, creating a life you're proud of. being present and focusing on yourself also allows you to practice intentional and mindful living. so you take your time to do the things you care about, you connect back to your spirituality, you realise that you’re more than a physical vessel, and you find yourself again beneath all of society's chatter.
this ultimately builds confidence and trust within you: you become an inspired creator instead of a powerless victim around the people who you look up to and also with 3d circumstances, which you now understand are just past relfections of old beliefs and are easily changeable.
and I think holding such mindset is beautiful :)
anddd, that's all! hope this was a helpful mindset shifting technique for y'all.
talk to you again soon <3
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I am bold ❤️
I am confident ❤️
I love myself ❤️
Life’s better when nobody knows anything about you.
mindset shift that changed my perspective on the journey to reaching my goals
1. words have power instead of seeing your efforts as strict discipline, begin to view them as acts of devotion to yourself and your dreams. your goals are a labor of love, not a chore. you don’t NEED to be disciplined, you need to be LOVINGLY devoted to yourself.
2. honor your goals devotion IS love and when you are devoted to something, you care deeply about it. applying this to your goals means you are treating them with the proper respect and love, not just as tasks to be checked off. it is not hard work, it is self love.
3. stop trying to follow others their path isn’t your path & what worked for them probably won’t work for you. cater your daily goals to YOU. don't follow their exact diet & add your favorite healthy food to it, eat it in your favorite plate, make a ritual out of it. honor it.
4. embrace failure have ambitious goals but don’t punish yourself for not achieving them. aim high, and if you fail, reflect on why. adjust what didn't work. failure is a part of the journey, not the end of it. with devotion, you see failure as a step forward, not a setback.
5. taking accountability instead of punishing yourself if you ruined your diet today, sit with your actions and allow yourself to feel those emotions, including any shame. but then, be kind to yourself and move on. stop fearing that you will fail again and trust yourself.
6. believe in yourself. this method works because it builds self-confidence. the more you practice & succeed, the more you trust yourself. by being devoted to your life, things just fall into place. *i’m not afraid of failure bc i know that, in the end, i will succeed as I always do.*
7. doing the hard things isn't hard do the hard things because your future self will thank you for it. be a gentle caregiver to yourself and give yourself the best. facing challenges that lead to rewards isn't just difficult, it's simply what you deserve for your devotion.
8. start implementing things you love into the hard things. don't like going on a walk? find something that you like about the place you go to. i personally pick flowers for my room. go visit a monument. go shopping. instead of feeling guilty about enjoying a non planned meal, allow urself to enjoy it by making an event out of it. go to a beautiful place, eat it & get something productive done. replace the guilt w/ productivity.
9. reflect on your progress after succeeding realize that the thing you dreaded doing has become a pleasant activity that you now look forward to. keep doing it. watch yourself become the person that you have always wanted to be.
10. research goes a long way. when studying a particular subject that isn't of your particular interest at the moment start reframing it as working on your own self concept and self mythology. knowledge is power. become interested by it, everything has value. and make the space you study in beautiful.
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It is sad how an everlasting grief is forced upon us. We did not choose this, we were made like this. You can get out of an abusive relationship, but how do you find an out with a physically overwhelming and emotionally draining relationship with your own parents? Nobody ever wrote a guide to surviving that. And how it can crush your soul with agonising pain, a lot harder than any heartbreak or death can bring. I have mastered the art of detachment but this is the battle I do not know how to win. I feel more like a stranger to my parents than any other stranger I meet on the sidewalks.
- Ax
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Heart and Mind
This is to compare the powers of the two main functioning heads of our body. Please remember that here, it’s not the organ heart which keeps pumping blood, that we are talking about. It’s the emotion that we tend to feel from our heart. Heart, in my opinion understands emotions and relations better than mind does. For heart, emotions and relations are in the first priority, what effect a decision will make on any of the two, most important things.
Mind, on the other hand, is more logical and relations and emotions are secondary to it. Mind basically focuses on how the results will be nice, and doesn’t really cares about it’s effects on emotions and relations, like heart does. It depends on the person to choose, whether he/she will act according to the Mind or Heart. I, personally think from my heart. (I know we don’t think from hearts, but try to understand the emotion.) I like to do what my heart tells me to do. But, this doesn’t mean to fully depend on only one of them, as this can result really very badly. Because, both Mind and Heart can be stupid sometimes too. In my case, I just give my Heart’s advice a higher level, but I don’t fully neglect my Mind either.
This is my comparison between Mind and Heart, and the rest depends upon everyone else’s thinking.
One minute in your arms can make me forget all my doubts.
A power I never wanted you to have.
~ honestlywhatfor ~