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not before im perfect.

how i look at someone who asks if im ok

went out today to walk and get snacks so i could binge eat before i start fasting ⭐

here have the unaesthetic pictures 💔

binge eating for the last time before I start ⭐ving myself <3

how to go viral on the $h and/or the 3d side of tumblr no glue no borax

So, my diet finally came in and it’s basically eating the minimum amount of anything so it feels like ⭐️⭐️! I’m so happy and I frel like it’s the start of a new chapter after a very bad downfall🩷.

Starting again at 67 kg Saturday, keeping you weekly updated 🩷

Went to see a dietitian today and I’ve been too honest apparently because she refused to give me a diet with grams.

Fml

I hate being delusional, like wdym instead of losing weight I gained???

I just discovered that 小红书 has huge amounts of th1nsp0!

If you still haven’t, try and see for yourself 🩷

Don’t you feel disgusted by your body? By your lack of control?

Don’t you feel disgusting in general?

Look at the skinny girls and boys walking around, basically disappearing in their clothes during winter and being fresh and clean during summer. Then look at you, feeling constricted by your own clothes and being all sweaty.

Now put the food down.

Or don’t.

Your choice.

⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅. literally my soul ⋅˚₊‧ ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅

do it because you want to be the skinniest boy in the room. ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆

│꒰⇢ masc spo

.⋆｡⋆ you can reach your goal. i know you’ll fit those jeans perfectly, you’ll do everything you wanted—as long as you continue. remember why you started this, and why you’ll continue. ༶⋆˙⊹

i love art dont get me wrong but i just went to a modern contemporary art museum and genuinely it was one of the most unmoving things ever.

i only enjoyed the nature walk and very few pieces of artwork, other than that i genuinely felt nothing.

too many big canvases with basically meaningless paint splatters and toilet imagery for me personally.

i know the whole point of contemplate art is the thought behind it and how it makes you feel as the viewer—the art itself is within our thoughts and emotions but most of the art felt soulless and made me feel nothing.

the most i felt during the entire experience was being annoyed that i didn’t get some big revelation—some enlightening eye opening experience how seemingly everyone around me does for modern contemporary art.

i understand there is soul and effort behind some of these pieces but i just can’t get myself to feel anything.

literally most of the art gave me the same emptiness i get when I see ai art.

i want to like it, i want to like it in an era where stealing others art and calling it “ai art” is a thing!

but i just don’t.

perhaps im just not deep enough to understand the appeal behind it or something.

perhaps it’s surface level of me to only like art that has clear narrative themes to it, that has an aesthetic appeal that anyone can see it had more than 20 minutes of effort put in.

at least the walking in nature was fun, plus it was like 5 miles of walking so i got my steps in.

join me, make sure to

kiss the mezuzah on

your way in !⠀⠀

✡︎ ───〃𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐃𝐔𝐂𝐈𝐍𝐆. . . Ofri !

18, he/him, transsexual & queer ⏜⏜ ⏜⏜ ⏜⏜

i’m Ofri, and this is my personal €d blog. unfortunately my old blog got deleted but i’m back better than ever.

i mostly curate an aesthetically pleasing page here with bi-weekly or weekly inspo posts, recipes, wl tips and occasionally jewish stuff.

slowly working back to my LW after deciding to try and “recover” for a year.

ABOUT ₊ ˚⟡

◜ likes: HaShem, queer literature, poetry, thrifting, ExtraHistory YT videos, Sabrina Carpenter, pinterest.

⋮ dislikes: weight gain.

⋮ hobbies: public service, reading, writing, crafting jewelry, collecting vintage books, cooking, religious journaling.

◟ LW: 110 LBS / 49 KG , CW: 150 LBS / 68 KG

EXTRA ₊ ˚⟡

◜ send anon messages in my inbox if you want, preferably use tone tags, nicknames are okay

◟ DNI ⸝⸝ antisemites, xenosatanists, radqueers, pro-shippers/anti-antis, misanthropists, antitheists, terfs, rcta/ecta ｡

Hey guys,

I'm leaving Tumblr, at least for a couple of months, in an attempt to r3 c0 ver. I'll probably come back 20Ibs heavier crying about how I regret it, however my mental health is declining very rapidly, and 4n4 isn't making it any better so until I can get myself back in to a safe headspace, I will be leaving.

I love you all so much, and thank you all for giving me such a wonderful community to be apart of. Ilyasm! Y'all are some of the most amazing, sweetest angels I've ever met. You all were here for me when no one else was, and were the only people I could talk to about my w31ght struggles. Thx for everything, and for helping me lose 40Ibs. I hope every single one of you hit your UGW, r3c0v3r, or find whatever will bring you true inner happiness. Thx again sm. 💓💕

Guys, I'm officially taking it seriously now.

LOOKING FOR A F4STING PARTNER (PREFERABLY 72+ HOURS) Pls repost.

Also, every like this gets for the first week, I'll extend my f4st by an hour. Starting with a 24-hour f4st. Please share this around, I want this to be challenging. Thx!! <3 (if I break my f4st, I'm deleting my account for accountability (ToT)👍)

Miso soup and muffins on rainy days>>

Pre/Post B1nge B0dy Check

First Pic: Day before 3 day 19k c4l b1ng3 (ga1n3d 12 lbs, mostly water.)

Last Pic: Today, 12 hours after b1ng3.

Fuck my life. Posting for accountability and to remind my fellow 4n4s that first 'snack/treat' is NEVER worth it. Love yall. 😭🫶

Also I'm seeing my husband this Sunday, so I have to stop acting like a p1g or im going to be f4tter than the last time he saw me

I mightve eaten 7k c4ls in the past two days....so I'm gonna attempt a f4st. I'm literally watching all my progress slip away from me rn. 🤪👍

I mightve eaten 7k c4ls in the past two days....so I'm gonna attempt a f4st. I'm literally watching all my progress slip away from me rn. 🤪👍

AHHHHH

I'm donating plasma rn and the woman who took my vitals kept talking about how tiny my hands are and then they had to use the CHILDREN'S blood pressure cuff. I'm so happy rn.

Any other anas donated plasma??

I need tips cause I always binge before donating with the excuse of "it's just so I don't faint" but that's all it is, an excuse. I get so weak and nauseous any time I go around needles and I have a donation tomorrow. Everything I've said online is drink lots of water, and no caffeine/nicotine beforehand. Does anyone have experience/tips for restr1ct1ng before/during donation?

I think I'm going to 🌟ve myself until the next time i see my husband. I want him to audibly gasp when he sees how small I've gotten. Posting so my fat4ss will hold myself accountable. 124 lbs currently. Let's see how mentally ill I really am. 🤪👍

I don't even want to have my weight in my bio..like it's actually embarrassing to be this heavy.

24hr f4st for the first time in months and my cravings are going crazy yall (pray for me)

New fav high protein safe combo!! (136 cals, 18.8g protein)

136 cals, 18.8g protein

Greek yogurt (nonfat, no sugar added) - 170g

Primer Protein Strawberry Almond protein cereal - 6g

Honey - 7g

Tastes literally so good. It's the perfect amount of sweetness and the honey balances out the Greek yogurt. Mostly carbs and protein. I love eating this pre workout cause it's so filling and gives me lots of energy. ✨

Helhest

The irony's a bitter pill, a twisted delight,

The less I have, the stronger I feel in the night. Empty echoes in a hollow frame,

A twisted victory in this hunger game.

Each rib, a bony crown, a badge of my fight,

Against a foe unseen, in the dead of the night.

The mirror, a canvas of decline and decay,

But in the fractures, a twisted kind of ballet.

Food, the enemy, a siren's sweet call,

But control, a triumph, that conquers them all.

The world fades to whispers, a distant refrain,

As the hunger consumes, a sweet, hollow pain.

The warmth of a fire, a distant dream's hold,

But the chills that wrack me feel strangely consoled.

For weakness is freedom, a fragile release,

From a world that demands, a body to appease.

The whispers grow louder, a chorus of fear,

But the silence within is strangely more clear.

A voice in the darkness, a chilling decree,

"Sicker is better, for that's how you'll be free."

But freedom's a cage, with bars made of bone,

A victory dance, a victory alone.

The depths I descend, a descent without end,

This twisted desire, a hunger that won't mend.

Oh, the tears that won't fall, the emotions all numb, Is this what it's worth, to finally become...

Not smaller, not thinner, but something far worse,

A hollow shell dancing, in a malnourished corpse.

- just a poem my sleep deprived mind came up with. I hope you all enjoy it cause I'm new to writing.🥴

Most triggering 4N4 songs?

Trying to find more songs to add to my Spotify playlist