Disaster enby (they/them) hoarding queer art and discourse for my personal entertainment and education. Enjoyer of all things body-horror, necromantic, punk, unseelie , etc.

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Latest Posts by eldritchbrainworm - Page 3

5 months ago

Now see, the big brained strategy that I’ve employed to combat this is to transition to the point where I’m forced to come out as a formality.

eldritchbrainworm - Morgan
5 months ago

Never underestimate the combined power of two traumatized punks who are heavily into the DIY side of things!

He Implies She's Worth Building Something New With, Next Thing We Know He's Wearing A More Revealing

He implies she's worth building something new with, next thing we know he's wearing a more revealing outfit with her signature X doodled all over his body. Good for him!

Also, between this scene and the moment they show up in battle, they've apparently had the time to: - turn her entire lab/hideout into a blimp - cover the whole thing in giant tags of the firelights symbol, her cloud tatoos, and more - rebuild pow pow and fishbones, which were very much broken in act 2 - rally the firelights - cut and dye her hair - crop his top - pierce his ears - sew her a shark hoodie - cover her entire body in crayon drawings - accessorize their outfits - again, turn her lair, a giant airshaft, into a functional blimp

Maybe Ambessa gave her entire army the week off before battle. Maybe Jinx and Ekko were on unfathomable amounts of cocaine. We'll never know

5 months ago

YEEEEEEEESSSSSSSS 🤘

Spent all morning distracted by what an amazing needle drop moment it would be at the end of a Gideon the Ninth adaptation if the outro was War Pigs by Black Sabbath.

Hear me out

The instrumental intro of that song is pretty long. What if we slow it down a tad. Make it a tiny bit moodier. Jod does his whole monologue about not being able to save Gideon, about the need for Lyctors like Harrow. Then the song starts in its normal speed/sound.

“Then rise, Harrowhark the First.”

🎶 Generals gathered in their masses

Just like witches at black masses

Evil minds that plot destruction

Sorcerer of death's construction 🎶

The both look out the window at a fleet of imperial ships massing at the edge of the system.

🎶 In the fields, the bodies burning

As the war machine keeps turning🎶

The scene fades to the bloody and abandoned mess of Canaan house, to the skeletons scattered everywhere, rubble from the building, the bloody spikes of the railing. It transitions to the house coffins in some hanger on the ship.

🎶 Death and hatred to mankind

Poisoning their brainwashed minds

Oh lord, yeah!🎶

Screen goes black, credits start the rest of the song plays on.

5 months ago

Yes, YES, YEEEESSSSSS!!! 💀

why fortiche should animate the locked tomb like arcane:

incredibly good grasp on "characters not acting like themselves" (e.g. viktor's changed mannerisms after merging with the hexcore, down to microexpressions)

the fight scenes

wide range of female characters that nevertheless all appeal to the sapphics (just. imagine seeing gideon built like sevika)

animating the moments where harrow's memory is "corrupted" along the lines of jinx's hallucinations

the pool scene. like imagine the water effects that the silco scene uses and pair it with the intimacy demonstrated with the caitvi interactions—

5 months ago

Rock on sister 🤘

been posting about this a lot recently but the essence is this being butch is beautiful i love being butch i grew up feeling so so masculine but when i dressed the way i did and acted how i felt i got told primarily by peers that i was a girly sissy fag and not actually a man

and it took me so long to fucking GET IT cause now i'm a whole-ass adult butch and I'm like oh FUCK, i was never a man OR a boy, i was never manly

i was fucking butch since day one

and also realizing that my experiences with gender, identity and presentation growing up are SO in line with those of AFAB butches and dykes

i've always been butch, i felt SO dysphoric about my body hair when it made me view myself as a man and when others viewed me as a man for it but now that i've got tits and more importantly people who don't fucking misgender me i'm like OH FUCK

i love my hairy legs and pits, i love my voice of gorgeous gravel-smoke, i love dressing up to scare off creeps when i'm out with my girl, i love looking all tough and masc and rough and tumble and then letting her tell me what to do (hehe, oops), i love my tattooed skin, my inability to conform to society's norms of femininity

i fucking love being butch shoutout to the boys that called me gay for writing poetry for girls i've chosen the name Cassandra to honor your demented gift of prophecy but i'll just call myself Cassidy most days because i feel like it

5 months ago

This hits WAY too close to home for me.

Escapism

Title heading: "Typical Narrative versus My Story"

Panel heading: "Childhood"

Left panel: A small auburn-haired child wearing a pink dress that is far too big for her, yelling "I wanna be a girl!"

Right panel: A small brown-haired child reading a book.  Text reads: "Escapism."

Panel heading: "Adolescence"

Left panel: An auburn-haired teenager awkwardly holding a skirt with a visible price tag, whispering "I really want this, don't I?"

Right panel: A brown-haired teenager watching a magical-girl animated series on television.  Text reads: "More escapism."

Panel heading: "Young Adulthood"

Left panel: An auburn-haired adult staring at a pill bottle with a feminine symbol on it and barely holding back happy tears.

Right panel: A brown-haired adult with long hair, standing at a table with a tabletop RPG set up.  Text reads: "Even more escapism."

Panel heading: "Later Adulthood"

Left panel: An auburn-haired adult woman in a dress with a handbag with a trans pin on it, waving to a nearby friend.

Right panel: A brown-haired adult is lying in bed, with a transparent pink feminine symbol visible over her. She has a nervous and alarmed expression and quietly exclaims "...FUCK."
5 months ago

I needed these books so badly the time I first read them too. I believe they’re genuinely helping me grow into a better person and teaching me how to pick myself up and learn from those who love me

The Locked Tomb series

the other day I was thinking how much these books have changed who I am. If not for the locked tomb I won't have met one of close friends and I don't know where I'd be if not for her kindness. I wouldn't have never really be able to express who I like with out fear. This book has gave me so much confidence and comfort. When life gets really hard I was think what would Nona do. When my depression gets really bad I know the distraction of reading the locked tomb always helps!!! These books are the best thing to happen to me!!!

5 months ago

And then each subsequent book continues to flip expectations of the genre like the cohort flips planets!

By the end of Gideon we’re already reeling, but then Harrow comes along and really shows off the brilliant inner workings of the setting and magic system all while gaslighting us on the very existence of the previous book. 😅💀

The thing that really gets me about the Locked Tomb series is that from a worldbuilding perspective it’s YA catnip. Like any other author would have started it out from someone low ranking in the cohort, maybe falling in love with a rebel or vice versa, introducing parts of the world slowly. There are even houses to sort yourselves into! It’s perfect! That would have been a good story in and of itself! However Tasmyn Muir started in the deepest depths of the equivalent of death cult Amish territory from the POV of someone trying to escape and join the terrible death army, and it works. It’s like if you started explaining the concept of Star Wars with a clone from one of the tanks in Palpatine’s lair. Obsessed with her as an author.

5 months ago

“YOU HAVE BYPASSED YOUR GOD-GIVEN PROGRAMMING SON!!!”

Are Those Your Parents?
Are Those Your Parents?

Are those your parents?

6 months ago

And then transmeds took it back and ran with it. 😔

But like, what did people we would define as trans do back before we had lab-grown HRT like we do today? Did we used to just, roll over and waste away? I don’t think so.

Modern HRT is a wonderful thing (I should know), but I personally see it as a societal bandaid solution and a “cure” for cis people’s perceptions of us. I LOVE what it is doing to my body, but if I lived in a world where transness and gender roles where fundamentally permeable, would I think the same way?

At that point it would just be another form of body modification I suppose 🤔

the “born in the wrong body” model has never been a correct and universal explanation for being trans, it was always just a simplification to get cis people to understand things better. but then cis people took it to mean “there is something fundamentally wrong with trans ppl that can only be fixed with hrt” and its making me lose my mind.

6 months ago

Now say “you were born in the wrong body” to a disabled or neurodivergent person. Congrats! Sounds hurtful and reductive doesn’t it?

it wasn’t until someone said to my face “oh so you were born in the wrong body?” that i realised how weird of a thing to say that was. like, no?? sure I’d make changes but it’s still MY body

6 months ago

Stealing this for personal use too…

Having a very serious discussion with @val-the-bun and @salora-rainriver and we have concluded that the best possible adaptation of Gideon the Ninth is with Gideon constantly pausing the movie and redirecting the audience's attention away from the plot and towards that girl she has a crush on like Cuzco in the Emperor's New Groove.

Harrow the Ninth meanwhile is best adapted as an episode of Mystery Science Theater 3000 with Gideon riffing on Harrow's life.

6 months ago

Saving this for research purposes 🤣

Tamsyn Muir's Synopsis Of Her Novel, "Gideon The Ninth"

Tamsyn Muir's synopsis of her novel, "Gideon the Ninth"

6 months ago

Mood. Not a healthy one, but mood

“i must be faking this for attention” thinks the girl who isn’t even telling anyone about it

6 months ago

I deserve to take up space. I am worth being a part of my friends’ lives. Advocating for myself is not selfishness.

"No one remembered my birthday-" Well, but did YOU tell anyone it was coming up and you wanted to celebrate it with them?

"I wish someone would see through it when I tell people I'm fine-" Well, but have YOU considered not lying when people ask you how you're doing?

"I am so resentful of my friend because they keep doing this thing that really bothers me-" Well, but have YOU directly communicated that the thing is bothering you?

"I am burning out because my friend keeps expecting me to help them with serious struggles-" Well, but have YOU tried to establish the boundaries you need to feel okay?

"No one ever asks me about this thing I really care about-" Well, but have YOU brought it up yourself?

"I miss my friend but they haven't texted me-" Well, but have YOU been reaching out to them?

Sometimes people are mean, uncaring assholes, in which case you get to be mad. But sometimes you just need to communicate better. Try communication before you assume someone doesn't care!

6 months ago

My best friend is resisting every attempt I make to get her to read these books as she vehemently hates YA novels. As of now, the only ground I’ve gained is her suggesting I compile a one-hour PowerPoint presentation explaining Gideon-Nona.

I feel OP’s pain here. This task is insurmountable. I am undone.

My sister in Jod, you ask the impossible 💀

I love folks asking for no spoilers for the rest of Gideon the Ninth after they've read it. "Please no spoilers" my sibling in Jod, I even if I laid the rest of the plot out in bullet points for you step by step in an annotated diagram there is no way I could prepare you for what was happening. I could tell you point blank what happens to each and every character in the series and you'd still read the books and go "what the fuck". Tamsyn Muir made a spoiler proof trilogy. It's like the matrix. You cannot know what happens in future books. To be frank even if you read them it's pretty much uncertain you know what happens in future books. I want the next one right now.

6 months ago

Oh hey two obscure things I relate to!

Is This Anything

is this anything

6 months ago

+ … comb, checkbook, chapstick, spiro, pen, etc.

(Here, pockets refers to a black denim hip bag held together by D-rings and carabiners)

eldritchbrainworm - Morgan
6 months ago

I am also very well fed from both of them lol, but I wonder how much of the mixup happens due to all the inaccurate white-passing Griddlehark fan-art… 🤔

(Coming from a pasty white person who went to their first queer Halloween party as Gideon full disclosure)

Happy to live in a universe where I sometimes come across fanart and am momentarily confused bc which ginger gay with the golden eyes and sunglasses is it??

Happy To Live In A Universe Where I Sometimes Come Across Fanart And Am Momentarily Confused Bc Which
Happy To Live In A Universe Where I Sometimes Come Across Fanart And Am Momentarily Confused Bc Which
6 months ago

And then to top it all off, Cam and Pal spend all three books unpacking and dissecting this binary until they ultimately reject it and LITERALLY become non-binary together!!! 🤯💀🔥🥹

I love how Tamsyn Muir was like, in this world everybody’s totally cool about gender and sexuality, but there’s a new invented binary that’s culturally and religiously defining and dictates who people are allowed to love and/or fuck and the roles they play in society.

They’ve written volumes and volumes of religious texts about how to conform to these sacred binary roles and filthy porn about people fulfilling or breaking the stereotypes of these roles. The role a person fulfills is determined before they’re born and dictates every aspect of their life. Once in a while someone who’s supposed to be on one side of the socioreligious binary is born more suited to the other side and has to hide it all their life (Coronabeth). Sometimes people fall in love in a way the socioreligious binary declares blasphemous and they decide to love each other openly anyway, and it shocks and scandalizes people no matter how wholesome and lovely and mundane their relationship is (Abigail and Magnus).

And these sacred binary roles are not equal, oh no, as much as the religious doctrine crows the importance of both roles, one is supposed to sacrifice endlessly and unquestioningly for the other, body, mind, and soul. And these binary roles have existed for ten thousand years and were created by God and underlie the whole structure of the universe! But here’s the secret: there was a time before this sacred binary existed, and God is just Some Guy who made this shit up.

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