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This is a new kind of tag game that I haven't partaken in so this will be interesting.

Tea or Hot Chocolate | Cozy Books or Halloween Movies | Plaid or Corduroy | Foggy Mornings or Twinkling Nights | Orange or Black | Pumpkin or Apple Pie | Wool or Velvet | Picking Fruits or Carving Pumpkins | Libraries or Coffee Shops | Cinnamon or Peanut Butter | Spooky or Cozy Halloween | Candles or Fairy Lights

Tag you're it: @pasta-monster-of-death @ami-box @shizuolovemail

ty @homosubtext & @evelyncwrites for the tags 🫶

Tea or Hot Chocolate | Cozy Books or Halloween Movies | Plaid or Corduroy | Foggy Mornings or Twinkling Nights | Orange or Black | Pumpkin or Apple Pie | Wool or Velvet | Picking Fruits or Carving Pumpkins | Libraries or Coffee Shops | Cinnamon or Peanut Butter | Spooky or Cozy Halloween | Candles or Fairy Lights

tag you're it: @invith @kenmas-blue-psp @aliens-took-my-iwa-chan

Life is...

I paint with my pencil graphite on paper heart on display an image, a word evoke emotion but will never mean what it did to me when it occurred. Just a reminder a place holder in time a memory as art.

Boo.

To acknowledge the Monster is to say

It is here,

That it has been here all along;

It is to stand in the dark with a terrible thing

Hoping it does not devour you.

To be hopeful is to be terrified

Of anything otherwise;

It is to hold on

To withering threads of optimism

As the likelihood of the unfavourable

Gets the guillotine ready for your head.

To scream Monster is to say

Here stands a terrible thing

That scares me;

You cannot simply

Take the elephant out of the room

And throw it under the bus,

You know?

To be scared is to admit

You have something to be scared of

And something to be scared for.

To draw a monster and ask yourself

What makes one,

Is to ask yourself what you consider

Dreadful enough to be called inhuman.

To tell stories of your childhood

Is to say it is long gone;

It is to acknowledge

Childhood pushed you off the cliff

And ran away.

It is to say you have been

Free falling ever since,

Trying to grasp at things

That do not stay.

To have an inheritance

Is to say that

Everyone in the family is dead.

To scream Monster

Is to stand in the dark beside it

And say you know terrible well enough

To know what a Monster is.

To say you are here

Is to realize there was a time

When you were not,

That there will once again

Be a time

When you won't be here;

It is to say you don't know

What time is anymore.

To be alive

Is to be terrified

(All the time)

And hopeful,

Even if the guillotine

Is getting ready

For your very execution;

It is to turn the lights off

And sleep in the room

With the Monster

And pray like hell

It does not kill you.

- A.G.

This is the last time

That I'm truly here

In every possible way.

Because I've let this place go.

With every visit,

I lose one core memory

Only for it to be replaced with another one elsewhere.

So if you ever ask me,

Why I am done

I'll tell you why.

Because there isn't any of me left here

To come back to.

-simra.t

C L O S E R .

You pulled me closer,

And closer.

I let your love sink in like venom.

With every drip i found my life hanging between sweet solace of death and the nightmare of the present.

To you I've gifted my life ,

My love.

To you I find my home ;

Yet you seem like the canon that shoots down my fragile home.

Day 13: Scared

I like how it sez cocs only HUD.gov click homless help … don’t go in bath room or go get stuff or be over burdened trust me I’d I would no family yuor can’t judge things what iz that Panda Express soda oh so good sun where pill mental health it’s smashing us no one on yuo side i ment I feel it see the F U

then why do i feel i should worry, huh ;-;?

I explored an Abandoned & Haunted Maternity Hospital. It was creepy but amazing ❤️

Check the Vlog here if interested

MY real world starts in three months, so fingers crossed, please

I hope I'm gonna love it..

💕

Here are some posing of our team work :) i’ve made the concepts/chara design, 2 other team mate made the modelisation (maya 2017/ Zbrush) and we’ve made the rig, blendshape and skinning and one of them with a little bit of my help made the textures. (But they’re not applied yet on those arnold renderview)

I’m just sharing with you some actual work of the current project. 1 week and a half left… Stressed but we’re gonna make it.

And here is one tumblr of a member of my team : DaveCave.tumblr.com

I hate that I'm afraid to sleep, not because of the demons that try to get at me as my dreams turn into nightmares.

It's because I survived today, everyone I care about in this fragile world I live in survived the day. Tomorrow..... Is inevitable and could be so much worse than any bad day I've ever had to live through.

While I go to sleep, against my will, but out of necessity. I know I have the comfort of my moon to glow upon me.

I don't take her for granted.

You never know how much you will feel, until you come across that which stops you in your tracks, not from fear but from sheer mental overload.

You never know how much you love, until you find yourself losing the very thing that kept you grounded.

Don't be afraid to live, don't go through this alone..... That which is painful is often more rewarding.

11:11

:')

You don't notice

The everlasting sorrow

That's drowning out

The life in my eyes.

I'm weeping inside,

But you're only seeing

Soft flesh

Carrying a fabric

That lays loosely over my body.

I am but merely an item,

That had been claimed

The moment you rest your body

Against mine.

All my self worth plummeted

In a matter of seconds,

And I have never felt so ashamed.

~ceramic-feelings

First Time

This moment when you start having sex for the first time, but you are so afraid and scared and don’t know what to do and feel bad about the boy who is trying to loosen you up and calm you down.

And then you fall asleep and later be afraid of showing that you are awake in the middle of the night.

And then you suddenly realize you’re probably really gay and demisexual (like you have been questioning) and now you just want to run out of his house and disappear but cant because his parents are awake and he is a light sleeper and he is actually one of your best friends and you would feel bad about just running away but also feel guilty for leaving him with blue balls.

I hate myself rn for this so much. Where is my confidence gone? Ah yeah right it always has been a fake mask, I forgot.

Scoptophobia - the fear of being stared at #Art #phobias #stare #fear #eyes #looking #sketchbook #drawing #scared #artbook #ceramics #jewellery #fears #staring #paper #artwork #love #teastain #work https://www.instagram.com/p/CAX_a9sH0zq/?igshid=1st31zicavvtq

You see

I see the scars

It’s a talent for me,

To find you at your weakest

And bring you up from your knees,

It’s scary but Please accept the journey.

I can’t make you choose

I promise I’ll show you the other shoes,

Just give me one minute

It’s all I need

I’ll show you the light

On the other side .

I want to see you smile,

I will enlighten your soul,

I promise I’ll keep Your heart undercover

Not like any other.

I won’t leave until

Your complete

I’ll take the pain

And turn it into rain

I’ll take the anger

And turn it into thunder

I’ll empty your brain

And make it my burden

Because I can carry that

If I know your out of danger.

@trueemotions91

As gentle as a butterfly

But yet it lies

Like a spy

With a fly

Upon my wall ,

Glorious colours to distract the eye,

From what is hidden beneath its wall ,

I dare knock as I’m scared I will fall,

As something as pretty as that,

Will clearly make me a fool,

I don’t hold the jewels ,

To unleash her soul

I would make her into a grizzly ghoul

She touches upon my senses

Makes my insides, go dense

But god forgive me

She is to damn cold

When I try to keep a hold

Of her love.

@trueemotions91

A joker ,

Hidden from me

Are you really surprised

I can see through the pain,

Painted on smile

In red lines .

Aint hard to see in

Between .

Painted white for the world

To see

But

Under the light ,

Your just another

Delusion of the night,

You think your words can itch me,

I have clowns in my dreams

Somewhere you could never reach ,

Think your nightmares

Can stench me from

My haven ,

Only witches have that cauldron

When they cackle up the night sky,

The birds want to come play ,

Because you will always hide

When the disguise

Falls behind the blind.

@trueemotions91

Heart broken

Spoilt little whore ,

Why you looking at me

Look at the floor.

Fool ,

Your heart is filled of

Stone cold coal.

I was only trying to find

Something inside.

He was petrified.

@trueemotions91

A child

So innocent

So pure

Handed to me

From heavens door

This mind is empty

He warned me

So what you do

Is down to you

I looked at him

Ever so confused

Didn’t understand

Or even have a clue

Baby blue

Precious eyes

Looking so unfilled

Yet pure & beautiful

This tiny persons eyes

Looked so empty

Is this what he ment

When he said

Watch what I do

I watch each day

As she grows

And I can see

Her eyes becoming alive

Isn’t that mad

A empty shell I swear at first

But as she grew

So did the life, Within her eyes

Full of love , life & laughter

This little person

Is growing into my imagantion .

So I believed

But I swear she is real

She was giving to me

To raise , to fulfill

With all the love I could ever give

And she will be my long life gift

To this crazy world we belong in

I just pray I’ve made her strong

Coz this world is scary &

I’m scared they will break

My innocent child’s eyes

From the pure beauty

Built deep with inside.

@trueemotions91

My mind is my haven

Yet I have no where to hide

Crazy thoughts

Constantly running in my mind

Wired feelings

I’ve never felt

Makes me giddy

Makes me wanna shout .

Feeling of something

Deep within me

Trying it’s best to reach out

With all my might

I struggle to keep it locked in

I’m fuckin petrified

If I declined

What would this thing do to my insides

It creeps in my throat

I promise you not

I feel it real tight

Makes me want to choke .

To keep it down

Is a strength I hold

Coz this fucker really wants to take hold

But I’m scared how my future will unfold .

@trueemotions91

I hear you,

I can feel you

I can’t see you.

Sickness

Weakness

You make me do all these things.

Love

Hate

Twisted emotions

You control all these .

My movement

My touch

My taste

Are all crazy things

It scares me

To know your the most powerful thing.

@trueemotions91

You're scaring me

I don't just like you, I love you and that scares me..

Before #annabelle It’s gonna be #scared #AnnabelleComesHome #horror #thriller #mystery #movie #shotoniphone (at Saint Petersburg, Russia) https://www.instagram.com/p/BzVhDNPnCwW/?igshid=1tsh3w018zvmj

Love is terrifying

I am scared of committing

I scared that I will fall in love with you

I am scared that you will leave me

Because all good things come to an end eventually

I keep watching couples breaking up and I fear that we would too

I wanna be all in but I know I am not

I am scared

Afraid

Of how broken I would be if lose you

So I pretend to not love you when I clearly do because I am afraid

Of everything falling apart because I won't be able to handle it

I am scared of falling in love.

So I need you to tell me

We will be okay

I need you to hold me close and say

Everything will be alright...