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it's no big surprise you turned out this way

"sirius orion black, how dare you! how dare you disrespect me and how dare you screw our reputation up! you should be ashamed of yourself!" walburga shouted in the black's dining room, making the glasses on the table shake. "get out of my sight!"

sirius got up of his chair quickly and ran to his room, thoughts coming up in his head.

when they closed their eyes and prayed you would change

walburga sat on her chair, reached her glass full of wine, took a sip and looked out the window, the moon reflecting itself in her eyes, glistering in tears.

"what did i do wrong" she whispered under her breath. "didn't i raise him right? didn't i raise him to be the heir we all want him to be? am i a bad mother?"

and they cut your hair and sent you away

"where are you going?" regulus asked his older brother, leaning against the door frame.

"away from you all. i'm done" sirius answered." you can come too."

"no..i can't" the other one replied.

sirius sighed. "i'm sorry it has to be like this. well...take care." he finished, putting the last things in his chest and walked downstairs.

"sirius black, where are you going?" walburga asked, getting up from the chair.

"away. and i'm not coming back" he said coldly and left the house.

"sirius...!" walburga shouted. "sirius orion black!"

you stopped by my house the night you escaped

"sirius?" james gasped. "what happened?"

"i-i don't think it's time to explain" sirius replied, panting.

"why am i standing here like this? come in!"

with tears in my eyes i begged you to stay

"i shouldn't come here, i'm sorry" sirius sighed. "i'll just pack my things and search for a place"

"no" james responded. "stay here! you're welcomed!"

"james, you're amazing, but i can't take it. i'm not worthy of staying here, and i'm just a burden."

"no you're not!" james replied. "stay! please!"

you said "hey man, i love you"

"no" sirius finished and exited the room.

"no! wait! sirius!"

"no, james. i shouldn't have been welcomed here. i'll just look for a place to go. sorry"

"sirius!" james shouted after him, with hope that he'll come back.

as he saw sirius walking off, james could only hear the word "sorry" in his head.

"sirius!"

"but no fucking way"

I also made this for the same assignment. Live laugh love logical fallacies!

I don't even know what this is, it just got out of me so yeah. Gonna update that kats x reader x eiji story soon dw. Now enjoy whatever this is—

Warning: cursing (I used fucking once I think), angsty, kinda sad, I think that's it

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"I do love you! But, you gotta let me love you too..." he said looking at her back.

She chuckled softly. "You know i can't do that... I'm simply" there was a small pause before she ended her sentence with "unlovable".

She said last word sounding so hard that he almost believed her.

"That's not true! And you know that! They just always said that so—"

She cut him off, "they always said that to me because it was fucking truth...i don't even know why you're trying..."

"Because you're worthy" he said his eyes obviously teary by now.

She didn't want it to be like this. She didn't want to hurt someone else, someone else's feeling. She wasn't even worthy of that so why is this man trying to lie to her face?!

"This is our last goodbye." She said turning around. She looked him dead in the eyes, getting closer.

His breath was getting heavier, he was getting scared.

She was in front of him. Looking at his eyes, then closing hers, she tiptoed and kissed him. For the last time, she kissed him with so much passion and love, even tho she knew she shouldn't.

He was frozen in place and before he could react she was alredy getting away. He wanted to take her hand and hold her there for at least a little bit longer, and he wanted it so bad. But he knew he couldn't. He knew she wouldn't want him to. So he did what she wished for. She let her go.

"Goodbye, Luke... even tho we had little time, it was the best I had in life..thank you for that" she said not looking at him, and walking away.

He just stared at her back. The tiniest bit of him hoped she would turn around, if not to run into his arms, at least to wave last time. She didn't.

Who knows, maybe it's better she didn't. He didn't know if he could bare with it.

The tear slid down his left cheek, as he said his last goodbye to the only woman who made him feel things other couldn't even try to, to the only woman he actually loved.

"Goodbye Carolina..." he turned around, and left.