I’m Not Allowed To Go To Therapy And I Needed A Void To Scream Into So This Blog Came To Be

nobody:

me: *likes a post*

my ocd: was that post you liked actually good? what if that person is secretly bad and people find out and then you're a bad person by association because you liked their post? what if this post has secret dogwhistles that you don't know about? and by liking it that means you agree with it! reread it 30 times until all the words don't even seem like words anymore and the meaning is mush! what? you can't tell if it is a bad™ post? see, you actually are a bad person because a good person would be able to tell. you are going to hell now! you need to think at least 5 'good' things so you can counteract your eternal damnation!!! now now now now NOW NOW NOW!!!!

how on earth can people abuse kids? bro this little thing is the size of your leg. what the hell is wrong with you

who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am i who the fuck am I who the fuck—

“You’re such a twink!” no sorry I’m literally just a trans man who doesn’t pass

If you had a child by choice, you:

signed up for an autistic child

signed up for a trans child

signed up for a lgbq+ child

signed up for a mentally ill child

signed up for a disabled child

signed up for a child with "conditions"

signed up for a rebellious child

signed up for a kid. in any way, shape, or form of being, it's your child, and you signed up for it.

And you are not:

the victim in any of these fucking situations for gods sake

genuinely what the fuck is the point

“Yay okay I’m finally done with band I’m gonna go home and read fan fiction and then sleep it’s gonna be great :3”

My ears:

im gonna fucking do it soon I swear to fucking god

TW - this is a vent poem that contains allusions to topics such as depression, sh, and passive suicidal ideation. It’s not explicitly about religion but it does use a ‘devil’ as a metaphor.

Be safe <3

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There’s a devil on my shoulder

He’s a nasty little thing,

but his whispers are so sweet

A blade tipped with honey, coaxing him to me

I don't remember when he came

Maybe he rode along on the agony of last November

Or maybe he's always been there

Nestled in the back, hiding away in a cloak of laughter

And each day his questions are more and more tempting

When the cloak is stripped away,

When the light of the day fades

I’m left alone to fight this silver tongued enemy.

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Stay safe out there yall, my DMs are open if anyone needs anything.

Remember, it’s never worth it, no matter how tempting it may seem,

"You are so mature for your age." Well, at least one of us had to act mature in this shithole excuse of a family.