thesemidnightthoughtss

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I don’t want to hurt people with my death

Instead I hurt myself with my existence

Feeling unwanted changes you a lot.

i wish you knew how bad it fucked me up

The way I loved you wasn’t normal and the way you broke me wasn’t either.

if you can’t handle me at my worst that’s understandable cause i can’t either

“Nothing better than memories, and there is nothing worse than them.”

— Anton Chekhov

The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.

Mental illness took so much away from me, sometimes I wish it would have taken my life as well

i am not enough and it’s eating me alive

well well well if it isn’t my own mental illness coming to mentally ill me

i am completely fine in an “i have been mentally unwell for years” kinda way

“I think hell is something you carry around with you. Not somewhere you go.”

— Neil Gaiman

I can’t imagine a future. It feels as if I’m not meant to be here

“you’re so distant” you literally made me feel like i wasn’t important

I can’t do this anymore. I hate myself so much, it’s suffocating me. It’s getting closer and closer to swallowing me and I just let it come.

I fought so hard in the past years for recovery and at some point I thought that I was getting better but now I hate my life even more than before and I don't know what to do anymore..

I mean yeah I carry a sadness that exhausts my will to live like a leach on my heart but I’m basically fine

“Don’t be a fool. Don’t give up something important to hold onto someone who can’t even say they love you.”

— Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You

“I mean, sometimes remembering can really destroy you.”

— Benjamin Alire Sáenz

how tempting it is to stop existing when you’re already barely here

i’m the problem. i’m draining to be around. i turn everything good into something toxic. i can’t stop myself from ruining everything, no matter how hard i try. i’m the only one to blame. i’m poison to everyone around me, i destroy everything i touch

You cannot make everyone think and feel as deeply as you do. This is your tragedy … because you understand them, and they do not understand you.

Daniel Saint

me: *exists* me: this is too much

Sometimes it's just feels like I am a burden for everyone, even for myself