riflehound
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👉👈 hi... you guys seem cool...!! :3 ive been wanting to approach y'all but didnt know how AJDJFJ also, i saw that you have a witch tag? :0 (i consider myself spiritual and do some witchy practices but i dont really call myself a witch)
- nova
OHH THANK U!! also yes! i am an eclectic pagan :3 also a witch!! we also love making friends so if u want to be friends feel free to DM us anytime!!
i love you if you've gone through physical trauma. i love you if you've gone through mental trauma. i love you if you've gone through psychological trauma. i love you if you've gone through sexual trauma. i love you if you've gone through religious trauma. i love you if you've gone through emotional trauma. i love you if you've gone through any sort of trauma.
your trauma does not define you as a person — you are much more than that. you are lovable. you are valuable.
auhhh your blog is so pretty. basic template, either dealers choice headmade or a dsmp fictive of your choosing if that's okay!!
cutter+alex, he/him
YEAHH thank you!! i will do my best to do the dsmp fictive, but ive never actually watched it, so it may be a little off LOL i hope its okay though!! i read a wiki page for it LMAOO feel free to take what fits and leave what doesnt :) also SORRYY if any of this doesnt fully fit! i had a hard time thinking of some stuff...
name: ranboo, boo, ran, ender, allium / allie, quill, rainbow, raine, riley, vinyl, clue, mystery, seeker, sage, asher, lucas, eugene, cedar, charlie, olive / oliver / oli, crypt, grim
pronouns: end/ender, end/ends, love/loves, red/reds, green/greens, heart/hearts, kind/kinds, trance/trances, walk/walks, peace/peaceful or peace/peaces, dual/duality, purple/purples, pur/purple, boo/boos, book/books, page/pages, particle/particles, eye/eyes, glow/glows, tape/tapes
age: ageless, appears as young adult
role: protector, emotional regulator, insomnia holder, dissociation holder, anxiety holder, conflict resolver, caretaker
genders: genderfluid, nonbinary, enderwalkic, cryptidcatgender, liminalic, vimemorin, reidrovex, lostpoeic, panicgender, endposgender, lossgender, endrian
orientation: asexual panromantic
species: half enderman, enderwalker, cryptid
personality overview: loving / caring towards friends, can be assertive when needed and usually in the defense of close people, likes to talk things out whenever possible and resolve conflict, protective of anyone considered close, forgiving, honest, wants to help others, forgetful at times, i could also see this alter taking up poetry / writing as a hobby :)
notable traits: insomniac, hard time making eye contact, dislikes being in water, verbal stims when stressed, likes to fidget with random objects and potentially collect things, loves animals... maybe has innerworld pet?
general aesthetic: softer, black and white, glitchcore maybe? or darker cottagecore / dark nature
add ons: ranboo introject
I HOPE ITS OKAY! sorry it took a bit, i was doing like actual research LMAOO
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Is it a headmate? Is it a fragment? Is it a facet? Is it a persona? Am I subconsciously masking? Am I subconsciously/involuntarily otherlinking/copinglinking? Is it a kinshift? Is it a ’flicker? Is it age regression? Is it a mood? Is it impulsivity? Is it an intrusive thought that I’m reacting to? Is it genderfluidity? Is it pronoun/namefluidity?
Who knows! Who cares! I don’t need to stress about this, it doesn’t matter! It’s a mode that the “I” is in, the way I feel in that moment! And I will make a pluralkit/tupperbox for it so I can express myself and decide the rest later! Or never! These labels are a construct! Personhood itself is a construct! I don’t need to box myselves! I can just live!
it's completely normal to have conversations with yourself every day for your entire life. "who are you talking to?" duh, the girl that lives in my head. why, do you wanna talk to her too? I can put her on speaker if you want
Here’s my metaphor for systemhood that I tell my singlet friends.
Imagine you’re playing a first person video game. You have the controller, you control your character. It’s a normal first person game. You are an alter, the character is the body. This is fronting.
Other people live with you. Sometimes, they come into the room and sit and watch while you play. They sometimes try to guide you, give you advice on what to do next. They don’t always agree, and they can argue with each other. Other times they scream at you that you’re doing everything wrong and you suck at this game. This is co-consciousness.
Imagine how distracting it would be for people around you to tell you what to do, or to scream at each other or at you, even if they have good intentions. It wouldn’t be easy to focus on your game, would it?
Then sometimes, something happens in the game that prompts you to hand off the controller to someone else so they can play and you get a break. This is (some types of) switching. This can be good.
Other times, someone rips the controller out of your hand or fights you for it. This is (other types of) switching. And sometimes, six other players hook up their controllers, but there’s only one character to play as. So all of you have your controllers, but you’re all trying to play the same character. This is cofronting.
Imagine how difficult that would be. Imagine how hard it would be to try and play a game while someone is trying to take the controller from you, or while six other people are trying to play too.
There are also times that nobody is playing, or you can’t decide who should play. What’s happening to the character in the game? What are they doing if no one is playing? This is dissociation. The character is doing nothing. They’re stuck.
This is the best metaphor I have come up with for being a system. It’s something a lot of people get because they’ve played games before.
TW // RAMCOA brief talk //
Hello! I apologize for popping in like this, i know its a heavy topic. I know what RAMCOA is, and i was wondering if it was okay to send in questions ( i can do it off anon if it helps you feel comfortable, just lmk if you prefer another ask, dms or comments /gen ) because i heavily wonder if i am a RAMCOA system.
Well partially at this point. I know it'll have heavy discussions, so i do truthfully understand if you wouldn't feel comfortable talking about it. If it helps i don't plan to ask anything personal, just general questions. If you know someone else who would be willing to answer or if a commenter wants to help i would appreciate anything, i am desperate. /lh
yes that is fine! i am not really comfortable saying for certain if you have / havent experienced RAMCOA... but i am a RAMCOA survivor myself and i am always happy to help others and discuss experiences! feel free to DM me, ill answer questions as well as i can :)
romeo is crazy as a guy’s name bcuz it’s famously one of the most well known love stories between a man and a woman in history but if i were to meet a dude named romeo id probably assume he’s gay
not endo myself but these questions are cool and i want to talk about my system so weeeee here we go
🦴 - thatss a good question honestly... as far back as i remember? i know i discovered DID by watching some youtube videos at like 11 and relating to them, but didnt think much more of it until my diagnosis at 15
🪽 - around the time of my diagnosis, i realized i couldnt ignore it anymore, so instead decided to learn to function together
🪐 - uhhh i believe luci? or maybe lexa... luci is one of our gatekeepers, and lexa is the primary protector. they were the most active in communication when we first discovered the DID
🔭 - roughlyy around the time of first discovery?? we had a list of names in notes app, we later swapped to simplyplural around the time of diagnosis (it had just been released, i think?)
🕸️ - nonee, we dont intentionally create alters, but we do have TBMC trauma if that counts ?? like yes they were created kind of on purpose but not by us lol
🫀 - we do! i honestly dont know if any of it is intentionally built or not but uhh it is pretty large and only some of us can access it
🌙 - wedont create alters, but our new splits like looking at ID packs and stuff! we dont use bah blogs though hinestly im not sure what those are
🦇 - gonna use "created" to mean split here, we recently did split but the new split doesnt have a solid identity yet
🍂 - ithinkk ᏩᏯ was the first host?? at least to my knowledge
🌿 - usually ID packs or just searching around, sometimes we ask friends for suggestions
🐚 - none of us really? unless you count kylo, he types like a myspace teenager lol so "to" = 2 and "for" = 4 sometimes, and many "xD" "lolz" and similar. he only types like that sometimes though
🪶 - yes! some of us have accents we picked up from media or people we grew up around
🪦 - a former therapist, i think? we would occasionally join system discord servers before that point, though
🕸️ - i usuallyyy dont, i generally only tell people i consider very close! for general strangers or not close friends, ijust say i have a disorder that impacts my memory, since thats the most noticeable symptom i have... for close people though i generally just tell them that i have a DID diagnosis, most people have been very understanding
🕷️ - not reallyy?? unless you count alters cutting off people lol, but generally anyone we have told has been understanding :)
🔪 - yes! my 3 closest friends all know (one is also a system), as well as my boyfriend (he is plural as well, i remember when i first told him his reaction was "oh my god... me too" it was really funny since i had been genuinely nervous to tell him LOL)
plurality ask game !
targeted to endos , but anyone can use ! post made by an endo :)
— start .
🦴 : when did you first start feeling plural ?
🪽 : when did you finally accept your plurality ?
🪐 : who was the first alter your system found that wasn't the host ?
🔭 : when did you start keeping track of your alters ?
— creation .
🕸️ : how many of your headmates are created ?
🫀 : do you have a headspace ? if so , how much was built ?
🌙 : do you use bah blogs to help create alters ?
🦇 : who's your most recently created alter ?
— general .
🍂 : who was your first host ?
🌿 : how do you find the names of your alters ?
🐚 : how many of you have typing quirks ?
🪶 : do any of you have an accent ?
— friends .
🪦 : who was the first person to know about your plurality ?
🕸 : how do you tell new people about your plurality ?
🕷 : have you lost friends over your plurality ?
🔪 : are you out to people irl with your plurality ?
in addition to the last post (different anon here) claiming they're "invading THEIR spaces" is so funny to me.... no bb you saw a similarity within stereotypical tiktok DID and the concept of tulpamancy and the only thing related in these two posts is that they share the plural tag...
YEAH LOL "non-traumagenics are claiming to have DID!!! DID is caused by trauma!!!" no actually they just... claim to be multiple! they dont claim DID in like 99% of cases, the only times ive seen it is for mixed origin sys
anti-endos worshipping the DSM and citing it as proof that plurality has to be caused by trauma / disordered: Rahhhh you're a liar because this book only used in america has it!!!!!
the helpful ICD, which apparently recognised non-disordered plurality in one of the iterations (not sure which one) and used across the entire world:
SORRY i am just now seeing this but YEAH i actually think i know what ur talking about. im pretty sure there is an ICD document / article about dissociation that mentions non-traumagenic plurality somewheree in it? but dont quote me on this because i saw it like... last year LOL
also the DSM never even says that plurality has to be disordered either? it just says that DID/OSDD-1 are not caused by spiritual or cultural practices, which honestly if anything validates non-disordered plurality? because like that means it acknowledges that identity alterations CAN be caused by things other than DID/OSDD-1
"i love attention so much i might as well be an NPD symptom holder!! ..........wait a minute"
me when co-con alter has the NPD awakening
i love dressing in alt fashion. currently thinking about the time this like 4yr old boy walked by me in the mall and pointed and went "WOAHH" and his dad was like shh we dont do that. like yeah kid. become emo. i support u.
not endo but sharing this + also adding on the note that a lot of their posts could be triggering to people with psychosis or paranoia, i checked their blog and YEAH! as a paranoid schizospec person... be cautious guys yeah
i& advise endos to block @ifuckinghateendos , some of their content is upsetting to see . this is not an invitation to harass them , i& assume they are a satirical blog .
stay safe , please !
made a meme for anyone else out there who gets stuck in the "it wasnt that bad!" or "maybe im not traumatized!" loops because trauma denial sucks ass!!! you all are valid!!!
Being a system is so weird like my mummy and daddy didn't like me so now I'm sans the skeleton
kinda fucked up that im not a tv show character or like a 14 year old's oc Because i would've been really really good at that
happy autism awareness day to all the girls who had “ friends” growing up who were actually bullying them . to the girls who always sat alone in the grass and wondered why nobody wanted to talk . to the girls who spoke to animals like they were listening . to the girls who created a little world in their room . to the girls who always felt ashamed for how deeply they love things and how passionately they enjoyed media . to the girls who covered their ears when they were overwhelmed by everything . to the girls who carrying a special thing around to feel safe . to the girls who never understood what they did wrong to feel so lonely . to the girls who were diagnosed later in life because they weren’t little boys who liked trains. you are so special and beautiful and you’re not worse for it, you love deeply and that is so wonderful please never try to push that down . I LOVE YOU !!!!!
it bothers me so much when "mental health advocates" are only supportive of the "acceptable" symptoms and disorders...
people who "advocate" for depression but call others disgusting for having trouble showering, or people who "advocate" for trauma survivors but say you shouldnt express your trauma in art or talk about it because its "triggering"...
people who "advocate" for BPD but demonize NPD and ASPD as if they arent in the same cluster...
people "support mental health" until it isnt relatable. people "support mental health" until it cant be romanticized. people "support mental health" until symptoms disrupt life. people "support mental health" until symptoms are noticeable and not easily hidden.
you are not an advocate if you do not advocate for us all. you cannot be a mental health advocate while also talking badly about people with personality disorders, including ASPD and NPD. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you make fun of autistic people who are visibly autistic. you cannot be a mental health advocate if you call the police on someone with psychosis for talking to themselves in public.
if your entire "advocacy" revolves around demonizing more "severe" symptoms or disorders, and romanticizing the "good" and "relatable" symptoms or disorders, you are not an ally. you are feeding into stereotypes.
i have ASPD and NPD. the amount of hate i see in "advocate" spaces is honestly shocking. if your entire advocacy revolves around "helping depressed autistics escape evil narcissists!!!!", you are not an advocate, you are ableist.
people with stigmatized disorders or symptoms should not have to water down the way they experience life and describe their personal symptoms and experiences just to avoid being called bad people. by demonizing some disorders while romanticizing others under the guise of "advocacy", you are spreading misinformation and reinforcing stereotypes. you are worsening the stigma for people who already struggle. you are harming everyone with struggles, because a lot of society does not see a difference of "good" vs "bad" mental illness. to ableist neurotypicals, we are all bad.
you hurt the entire community by excluding your own.
you advocate for all of us, or you help none of us.
spirituality as a system is so funny because now i have to worry about introjecting a random deity. like what do you mean i can just be minding my business and now loki is in mybrain like PLEASEEE
saying "who said that" at the end of a sentence is a lot funnier when you're plural. who DID say that
hey guys, ive been trying to look for information on NPD and ASPD comorbidity but the only things i can find online are ableist "narc abuse" articles LMFAO...
i am questioning if i may have comorbid NPD and ASPD, but im not entirely sure how this comorbidity might look... so i figured id ask and see if anyone with the comorbidity could explain
very cheesed to see someone else acknowledging the pervasive hypocrisy in anti-endo spaces. another big one is how they claim their stance is to "protect the community from fakers" or some other insistence that endos/related are bad actors, and proceed to.. you know. exclude other disordered systems from osddid spaces on the basis of supporting endos. a la the very blatant implication of "you're fake if you believe in them because a Real System wouldnt believe in them". like dude. seriously? where am i
yeah, also like... claiming endos are "fakers" is always so weird to me because... in order to fake DID or OSDD-1, wouldnt you kind of need to claim that you HAVE the disorder??? endos dont claim DID or OSDD-1 to begin with LMFAOO so how would they be faking it
omg lol i wws just explaining the same thing to my partner, that it’s hypocritical how they understand didosdd is more than just alter disorder and then turn around and claim alter = didosdd? every time i argue with antiendos it devolves into the most basic argument
“endos are faking having didosdd! theyre invading our spaces!”
“okay but the majority of endos dont claim to have didosdd, that’s like the entire point of the label”
“but by claiming to have alters you’re just roleplaying didosdd!”
“but you agree that didosdd is more than just alter disorder, right? if you can have hallucinations or depression by itself, as a symptom of a disorder or even as a struggle alone, who’s to say you cannot have alters by themself? that’s even barring the hundreds of other ways people claim to have headmates, which are not things that you have authority on if it is real or not since you don’t live in their brain”
“…YOU’RE FAKING!”
“i am diagnosed with did, i just do more critical thinking than you do”
“YOU’RE STILL FAKING FOR BEING PROENDO LFMEBFKWJFNWKJSJAK”
like it’s tiring seeing all of these people listen to whatever lie gets told to them and then base their entire personalities off hating some group or other just because the internet told them to. and anything less than hatred is somehow unacceptable as well
YEAH exactly!! like... its kind of just gatekeeping the term "system" at this point, because the DSM-5 actually acknowledges cultural practices that cause identity alteration in the diagnostic criteria of DID. there is a specific note saying it isnt a cultural practice lol