Latest Posts by panca123 - Page 7

hc that hsy writes a lot of comfort scenes about food and sleep and mundanity in twsa because she wants kdj to be healthy btw

cue that one scene where kdj mentions that everytime yjh craves and eats dumplings in twsa he gets some for himself from the convenience store as well

do you think that kdj's past (od's future) happened because od imagined kdj's life to be like that? failing school, getting into a third rate college, eventually going to the military... because he never believed he could have a decent, happier life in "reality". that even his best self could live only during the scenarios, never in the mundanity of a normal, non-apocalyptic world.

you know what else is so heartbreaking about orv tonight? 1863, its so painful that the arc that kim dokja almost leaves "his" han sooyoung and yoo joonghyuk for is the arc that they are at their worst. Han sooyoung is sacrificing the entire line for a chance at a better version and yoo joonghyuk has no one and is so deep in his depression that he actually is making steps to permanently kill himself.

Imagine being either of them from 1864 and learning that he almost left you for the parts of yourself that you've been trying to get rid of, Imagine learning that it is all of you that he is dedicated to and maybe the ways that you've split yourself makes you less than what he wants.

Imagine looking at less of him and realizing the same is true for you.

rereading early orv is like. wow kdj is so detached from the rest of his companions. he still believes ysa's close to him because she's nice to everyone and he counts as everyone. he still talks about the end of the scenarios as if he expects a peaceful, happy ending to this story because he hasn't planned it out yet. he still judges yjh as if he were only a character he would utilize to get to that end. and every time i feel uncomfortable reading kdj be so heartless i remember that he hates himself exactly because of this in the later scenarios