SAG-AFTRA Foundation Conversations X

Jayce's Journal - A Hidden Entry

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They’re all so lucky that Nat has never actually joined in on one of the card draw hunts because she would be absolutely lethal

the others criticized shauna for spending so much time with jackie’s corpse but i mean…. there wasn’t shit else to do in that cabin 😒

Saw this at SWCJ and I can't get over how adorable it is! 🥹

it’s always been so interesting to me that one country’s “civilian casualties” is another country’s “terrorism”

this scene KILLS ME because jackie is literally ranting about natalie’s sex life. she is yapping to travis about nats standards and what she does in her free time. she canonically keeps note of everyone nat hooks up with and is bothered by it like….she is so chalant that it’s hysterical.

she is so insanely bothered by nat hooking up with people that aren’t her. why else would she give a fuck what nat is doing. this is supposed to be some malicious, nat-bashing scene when in reality…it’s just jackie taylor wanting natalie scatorccio soooo fucking bad. she wants her SO BAD that she’s COMPLAINING about her STANDARDS.

i can see nat showing up to practice late ONCE and jackie turning red like one of those angry cartoons while she marches over to her. fists clenched and all.

“oh let me guess who it was this time. bobby? or was it that older scumbag you met at that show? or….”

and she just goes on and on…rambling angrily….WHOLE TEAM watching her throw a gay ass tantrum. pure gold.

“judas, must you betray me…with a kiss?”

Ending so devastating I had to draw a happy ending for her

I always wonder how Nat would've reacted if Misty where the one who died instead.

This is really interesting to think about actually. I think Nat would have a very complicated grief response, in line with how complicated Misty and Nat’s dynamic always was. I think it would hit her a lot harder than she would have expected, I think she would actually be quite devastated by it but also confused and frustrated at herself for grieving so deeply (“Why am I grieving when this person destroyed my life and was absolutely fucking insane?”). I think, outwardly, she would actually be kind of embarrassed to be that devastated over losing Misty and would probably try to hide it from the others, but I think she would have some private breakdowns about it for sure.

Misty hurt Nat in many ways, but beneath that anger, I think there was always a part of her that knew Misty was someone who, for all her faults, did care in her own twisted way. And Nat didn’t have many people who genuinely cared about her. Misty was one of the few people in that group who truly saw Nat—not always in a healthy way, but in a way that felt real. There is so much history between them and we haven’t even seen it all yet.