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Name: lily

Nickname: Lil

Zodiac: sagittarius

Height: 5ft 5inches

Languages: 4yrs of spanish and counting and starting korean. Slight french.

Nationality: ---

Favourite season: spring or fall

Favourite flowers: peonies

Favourite scents: clean, fresh, woodsy

Favourite fictional character: i can't choose.. lol

Coffee, tea or hot choc?: coffee on special days and tea a million times a day

Average sleep: 7 to 5hrs nothing less

Dogs or cats?: both but i cuddle more with dogs

Number of blankets: 2

Dream trip: south korea, japan, Seattle, london

Blog established: i think its been 3yrs or 2.

Random fact: i have a twin brother

Gender: female

Current time: 10:19 p.m

Favourite artists: BTS, billie eilish, tove lo, camila cabello

Stuck in my head: cry for me

Last movie i saw: all the bright places

Last thing i googled: redox reactions... lol

Do i get asks?: sometimes.. feel free

Other blogs: productivelily102

Reason for URL: its my name...

Followers/following: i have no clue and i dont feel like checking

Lucky number: 2 and 7 .... i rlly like odd numbers but not in maths

Currently wearing: white sweats and a pajama top

Dream job: doctor

Favourite food: meat! Or brownies

Instruments: i did piano for 3yrs i want to continue and i want to learn the violin

Favourite song: run by bts or we could be happy by rachel yamagata

I am tagging: @studyblr @studie-s @studylustre @tbhstudying @the-literaryowl

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thank you @unepetitecreature for tagging me!!

Name: seoul

Nicknames: soul, vega

Zodiac: cancer ☼  capricorn  ☾

Height: 173 cms

Languages: fluent in turkish and english. learning german and french.

Nationality: turkish

Favourite season: autumn n winter

Favourite flower: roses

Favourite scent: citrusy scents

Favourite fictional character: alex from clockwork orange

Coffee, tea or hot chocolate? coffee for studying, tea for relaxing, hot choc for reset days

Average sleep: i have no o o oooo idea

Dog or cat? cats

Number of blankets? 3

Dream trip?  france, italy, new york, los angeles, brooklyn, germany, seoul

Blog established: end of 2018

Random fact: i am an only child

Gender: non-binary

Current time: 20:16

Favourite artists: bts, therapie taxi, labrinth

Stuck in my head: price on my head

Last movie I saw: parasite

Last thing I googled: aloe vera gel

Other blogs: none

Do I get asks? sometimes

Reason for URL: it’s inspired by yoongi’s genius lab

Followers/following: 2718/708

Lucky number: 3 and 7

Currently wearing: black sweatpants and dark blue sweater

Dream job: game/app developer and graphic designer

Favourite foods: chicken

Instruments: guitar, violin, piano

Favourite song:  Mood in one song: vampire weekend - step

i’m tagging: @starlightandstudies @integral-sign @diaryofastemstudent@depressed-student @bookmark-artisan @almastudies @hmvex @psy-studies @divinestudy  @ra-studies @irachional @caffeinated-aquarius @lifesci @i-would-tame-the-stars @graystudie @lily-sam @river-puppy and if anyone else wants to do this, you can say i tagged you!

(Summer Study Challenge) 8/22/2020: Imagine that you could fill a swimming pool with anything except water and swim in it. What would your pool be filled with? 

This is giving me too many flashbacks from competitive swimming, so I’ll stay away from the pool if it’s cool with you. ;) 

Nineteen credits and two honors seminars sure do hit you kinda fast, don’t they? I’ve started blocking out my days schedule wise and I’m loving it so far. It feels so much better than the pomodoro method for me. I’m usually allotting an hour and a half to each subject and an hour to do these posts should I have the time to do them. As you can see, I don’t post every day on here, and probably won’t. This semester is busy, busy! 

The first two days of classes went pretty well, and my internship is off to a great start. I’m enjoying my classes so far, but I still have two more that haven’t met yet. Also catch me trying to learn Latin myself - the textbook went straight to verb conjugation and I respect that but I have no idea if I’m doing any of this right. 

Hope you’re all doing well. Steady on! 

🎶 : Das Wandern (from Die Schöne Müllerin - performed by Ian Bostridge and Mitsuko Uchida) from my Favorite Repertoire for Tenor playlist

When I was 13 years old and curious about sex and love, I asked my mom if she had had sex before marrying my father (of whom she is still married to, and has been since before I was born). She said that that wasn’t really a ‘yes’ or ‘no’ question. I said ‘sure it is, you’ve either had sex before him, or you haven’t’. She brought me onto the couch and sat me down and told me about the boy she liked when she was young and how one night she snuck into his house while his parents were gone and they were kissing and he said they should have sex and she said that she wanted to save sex for marriage and he laughed and basically took all her clothes off and he raped her and as my mom was telling the story she cried and this was the second time I had ever seen my mom cry. She was 12 when it happened.

In grade 8 I got a call from my friend in the middle of the night and she was drunk in the park crying and told me that she went out that night with some other friends and they drank a little and her guy “friend” starting flirting and yes she laughed at first but then he tried to pull her shirt over her head and she pulled away and he ripped her shirt and it was her favourite shirt and then he pushed her to her knees and HIS BEST FRIEND HELD HER JAW OPEN WHILE HE FACE FUCKED HER. And so I went to the park and picked her up and took her home and slept in her bed with her except we didn’t sleep because she just cried and her mouth bled and this was four years ago but I still have to be the one to bring her items to the till it the cashier is a man, and she still has anxiety attacks and she’ll get a rash all over her body and I just want to kill those boys but instead they are still walking around. And I’m in the bathroom with her, dabbing at her skin with a warm cloth until it returns to its regular colour.

And in grade 9 one of my closest friends was kinda seeing this boy and so they hung out one night and then she said that she really had to be getting back home and he said that she wasn’t going anywhere until she gave him what he wanted and he parked the car and took off her clothes and she said no and he ignored her and so she laid in the backseat totally limp and just cried and it wasn’t even sex, he just masterbated by using her body instead of his hand and she came to school the next day with vodka in her water bottle and she drank all day and I had to fight her to get the alcohol away from her and she just cried and threw up and I skipped class while I held her hair back and that same boy texted me a month later, asking if I ever wanted to hangout sometime.

And in that same year my very best friend who has never even kissed a boy, confessed to me that when she was 9 years old, her 12 year old cousin made her give him a hand job and he told her that was what cousins do and he gave her a chocolate bar afterwards and she told me that he probably doesn’t even remember it but that it’s something that she’ll never have the luxury of forgetting.

And in grade 10 I knew a girl who invited her best friend over to watch Disney movies and then he started to put his hands down her pants and she said no but she is 130lbs and he is 220lbs and he called her a tease while she tried to fight him but he used one hand to hold her down, and the other to put inside of her and i was the one to push her inside of a classroom and stand in front of her while calling the police when he showed up at our school looking for her and she was so damn scared.

And a few months later I skipped class and was in the car with a guy who i had had unprotected sex with in the past while under the influence of cocaine but this time I was sober and I insisted we use a condom but he told me he couldn’t feel anything while the condom was on so he ripped it off and I said I refused to have unprotected sex again and so he just grabbed me and forced himself into my mouth and I was crying and he pulled me onto him and I just came saying “stop” over and over like a broken record but he must’ve heard something different because he went until he came and I just sat naked in the backseat while he drove me back to the school and said “we should do this again sometime”. And I had five showers that night and I scratched at my skin so hard to try and rip his fingerprints off of me, I still have the scars.

And I found out soon afterwards that that same guy had raped a classmate of mine, 5 months earlier and she told me about how he brought her McDonald’s first, and how he said they could take things slow and she told me about how he didn’t listen to her either. And he goes to our school and so after she told me about her incident and I told her about mine, we decided to report it to the police and the trial is currently still going on and he told people about it, except in his version we are just “asking for attention” and all his friends talk about how bad they feel for him. As if HE is the one that still wakes up screaming. As if HE felt like his skin no longer was beautiful, no longer belonged to him. And I held her in my arms as she bawled after giving the police her statement. And she did the same for me.

And I met a woman a year ago in a paint store and she had a service dog and I asked what the dog was for and it turns out that she had been so brutally raped and abused in her life, that the dog is literally trained to keep men away from her.

And I’m so FUCKING SICK AND TIRED OF THIS WORLD WE ARE LIVING IN. How many rape victims eyes have I already looked into? How many more will I? And how many more friends will I hold while they shake? Because I don’t know how many more I can take. And who the fuck still has the nerve to make rape jokes? And… Something just has to change. Please, someone just start being that change.

-16 year old girl

this is probably an unpopular opinion but i’m excited for bangtan’s collab with halsey.

she’s supported them for a long time now and i don’t think she’s using them for clout like previous western artists have.

i know she’s been problematic in the past and it’s not my place to tell people how they should feel about that, but she’s human and i believe she’s grown from her mistakes.

as a mixed, openly bisexual female artist who has spoken out about her experiences being bipolar and who continuously and consistently writes meaningful songs regarding her own personal struggles with relationships, fame, and her own self-image, i’m excited for what she and bts can bring to the table.

i just get annoyed at how quickly certain bts fans “cancel” other celebrities (especially female celebrities) at the tiniest whiff of something problematic and then bash bighit’s collab choices.

we’ve already established that members of bts have done problematic things in the past, but we forgive them because we recognize that they’ve matured and learned from their mistakes. but y’all can’t do that for halsey? ok.

listen to her less mainstream music and get back to me on how she only writes stupid tumblr teeny-bopper songs. songs of hers such as gasoline, control, hurricane, empty gold, and selfie have really helped me through hard times and i believe at her core, halsey is an artist who puts a lot of care and meaning into her songs, and who is also interested in being an advocate for her communities.

hearing bad at love on the radio?? where halsey openly sings about having dated men and women?? on the RADIO?? MY BISEXUAL ASS WAS SHAKING!!

but some of y’all are so caught up in bashing her that you can’t even recognize her good qualities, huh?

Mars in Astrology

The God of War in Roman mythology went by mars.  Second in power to the one and only Jupiter. Many of the myths surrounding Mars tie in with the Greek’s own warrior, Ares. Mars, however, was much more impulsive and aggressive than Ares. Mars was also viewed as more noble and virtuous than his Greek counterpart because he was the defender of Rome and the city’s borders. In astrology, if Venus is your femininity, then Mars would be your masculinity. Venus is the cooperative part of yourself that makes people want to like you. She’s charismatic, charming, and knows how to win people over. Mars, on the other hand, is that part of you that drives you to fight and protect. He’s aggressive, impolite, defensive, and intimidating. Mars represents your drive, anger, motivation, and how you defend yourself. Mars shows how you go out and chase down what you want. He’s motivated, always productive, moving forward. Venus is harmonious. Mars is destructive. Venus pleases others, Mars pleases himself above all else, therefore, this is where our violent tempers and selfish behaviors come from. Venus knows how to say things to win people over, painting her words wisely so that everything comes out sounding charming and considerate. Everything Mars says, on the other hand, comes out blunt, on the spot, and can be rude and inconsiderate. Does Mars care? No. Mars is ruled jointly by Aries and Scorpio, being exalted in Capricorn. He’s in detriment in Taurus and Libra, and then falling in Cancer.

The glyph we use for Mars (♂) is the alchemy symbol for iron, but it’s better known as the symbol for males. It’s a combination of an arrow atop a circle, symbolizing someone being driven forwards towards their desire. It’s speculated to depict both a phallic symbol and a violent one.

Rulership/Exaltation/Detriment/Fall

Mars is ruled by Aries and Scorpio combined. Aries is the warrior, making Scorpio the assassin. Aries represents the tactless, explosive half of Mars. Aries is the half of Mars that destroys cities and countries at the snap of a finger. Impulsive, aggressive, and angry, Aries takes thrill in fighting and battles. When Aries is mad, you know. Aries makes their intentions known and handles it promptly. Scorpio, on the other hand, is more tactful and secretive; the silent killer. You never really know where you stand with Scorpio. They hide how they’re really feeling until they’ve truly planned out how they’re going to strike, and then, look out, because when they sting you, it’s hard to recover. Both of these signs radiate a lot of yang-energy. They’re both driven, ambitious, dominant, aggressive, and intimidating. Capricorn is where Mars is exalted, something that’s often forgotten. Capricorn isn’t necessarily outwardly aggressive, but the sign entirely encompasses drive in and of itself. Capricorn is truly a goat, always climbing up the mountain, never stopping, always trying to succeed and do better. Capricorn is the part of Mars that will trample over someone else just for their own success.

Taurus and Libra are where the God of War is weakened and lost. His yang-energy become suppressed and overwhelmed by the submissive yin-energy of these two signs. Libra is too worried about what other people think of them to call people out, afraid of making a scene. Libra is also very independent and needs to learn and practice independence. Libra also tries to rationalize everything and make excuses for even the most inexcusable things. Taurus, on the other hand, is driven but is very reluctant to change and is very stubborn. They don’t really have angry outbursts; they just prefer to keep everything inside until they explode. Both need to prioritize their own sanity before that of everyone else. Cancer is where Mars has fallen. Cancer’s nature is nurturing and connecting. Mars’ nature is to destroy and burn bridges. When Mars is in Cancer, we see civil wars and dysfunctional families. I kind of envision this placement trying to cook something and burning the entire house down because they were impatient and wanted to speed up the process.

Astrological Meaning

I mentioned earlier in the article that if Venus is your femininity, then Mars would be your masculinity. Venus wants people to like her. Mars doesn’t care who does or doesn’t like him. He is a warrior through and through. Astrologically, Mars represents how you chase after what you want. Mars is very self-oriented, in opposition to Venus’ relationship-oriented nature. Venus shows how you attract; Mars shows how you fight for what you want. Mars represents your temper, your desire, and your motivation. Mars shows how you please yourself, but it’s different from self-care. Mars shows how you find personal power within yourself and use it to conquer whatever obstacles you may encounter. However, it’s literally infamous at this point that when you set boundaries with people, they often cause conflict. Where Mars lies in your natal chart is where conflict erupts. At Mars’ core, the planet represents who you become when you free yourself of the constriction of societal pressure and are yourself, regardless of if people like it or not. Mars is blunt, straightforward, and doesn’t give a damn what people think. He doesn’t care if he comes off as inconsiderate, he just says it and moves on. Mars is also the embodiment of a competitive spirit. When you channel Mars energy in conflict, you use your words or your fists to rip someone apart and tear their ego limb from limb. When and how you release all of this aggressive energy is entirely dependent upon your sign and the house placement.

A healthy Mars is brave, confident, outspoken, and chooses battles wisely. When Mars is in balance, you think before you speak. You recognize the weight of your words and actions, as well as the possibility of saying or doing something that’s irreversible and unforgivable. You fight for what you believe in and you have the courage to defend yourself and others against opponents and tyrants. You use Mars to survive and keep moving every day. If you think about it, just taking the first step to get out of bed every morning is Mars energy in a simplistic form. We use Mars to wage wars, fight for our rights, climb the corporate ladder, and defeat tyrannical overlords. However, because his energy is so powerful, and humans naturally crave power, it’s easy to overdose on. With Mars comes the urge to overbear, destroy, and dominate everything around you.

When Mars is too prominent in your chart, you’re hyper-masculine (regardless of gender), and you become entitled, selfish, and rude. You’re overwhelming to be around and erratic. You lack self-control because you’re so numb to everybody else’s feelings. It’s one thing to not care what other people think, but it’s another thing to just be plain old rude and insensitive for the hell of it. When Mars is overly rampant in your chart, you’re impulsive and jump onto every whim that stirs up even a tiny bit of excitement. You don’t care about how your actions affect everybody else. You’re also probably violent and will fight just to show your power over everyone else. You scare people just because feeling like you have power over people fills a void. When Mars is too heavy in your chart, you become a bully.

When Mars is too weak in your chart, you’re cowardly and insecure. You become a doormat for everyone to just trample over. You have no drive, no motivation, and no boundaries. You don’t know how to call people out when they’re abusing their power, and you don’t want to because you don’t want to rock the boat. You lie awake at night, fearful of what other people think of you. You need to become more self-assured and recognize your own personal power. When your power is stripped away from you, you’re likely to become bitter and resentful, and still end up lashing out on other people as an overcompensation for how lost you feel. Neither Mars extreme is good for anyone.

Correspondences:

Signs: Aries, Scorpio

Color: Red

Crystals: Red Jasper, Bloodstone, Ruby, Garnet

Element: Fire

Day of The Week: Tuesday

Deities: Mars, Ares, Odin

Mars Throughout the Signs

Aries: goes after something regardless of if they can actually have it or not, believes in themselves very heavily, very confident, other people’s doubts in their ability don’t affect them, challenges are dealt with promptly, doesn’t appreciate authority figures, impatient, selfish, volcanic, independent

Taurus: hard-working, dependable, takes their time, like a bull when angry, admirable work ethic, strong willpower, stubborn, committed to any task, accomplishes more than anybody who’s more fast-paced, often gets too comfortable, passive, doesn’t know how to handle obstacles, no stranger to burnout, doesn’t give themselves a break

Gemini: gets distracted very easily, fickle, easily bored, the attention span of a horsefly, chases too many things at once, scattered, erratic, very intelligent, excellent problem solver, a master of manipulation, runs the risk of being a compulsive liar

Cancer: doesn’t really try to go after or control anything directly, tackles things indirectly, passive, tenacious, knows their goals, uses subtle manipulation, guilt tripping extraordinare, anger comes in waves until it transforms into a huge tsunami, very scary when angered

Leo: loud, assertive, dramatic, a force to be reckoned with, fierce, a natural born leader, knows how to rally people around them, constant need to be in the spotlight, will be the loudest and most known in a revolution, hungry for power, when insecure they may pick fights or arguments just for the sake of having attention and being self-righteous, desires public adoration

Virgo: very hard-working, excellent planners, perfectionist attitude, never satisfied, always beating themselves up, constantly worried about how they could’ve done things better, you’d never know about their self-doubt because they want to be seen as responsible and composed, often finds petty crusades to complain about, annoyed easily, nitpicky

Libra: always trying to find a peaceful resolution, constantly saying that they understand both sides of the situation, oftentimes become monkey in the middle, wants all parties to walk away happy, doesn’t want to put themselves first, hates conflict, strong desire for justice, love to argue and debate

Scorpio: understands that you cannot be loud and demanding all the time in pursuit of achievement, is subtle and tactful about their approach to things, cunning, intelligent, manipulative, clever, sly, might view people as pawns in their little game, adept in getting people to do their bidding, probably business people and politicians

Sagittarius: optimistic, can’t stick to goals, starts things with lots of enthusiasm but accomplishes very little because they get bored so easily when things don’t line up with their expectations, impatient, needs self-discipline, needs to plan better, in desperate need of a reality check

Capricorn: so much ambition, wants to be powerful, wants to have everything in their hands, wants to reach the top of the mountain, achieves goals through realism, discipline, commitment, and hard work, doesn’t like authority, wants to be the authority, stressed out, battles with insecurity/anxiety/depression, needs to learn how to steal the spotlight, eyes are always on the prize, doesn’t take the easy way out

Aquarius: disciplined, motivated, hard-working, stubborn, intellectual, comes up with a formula for success and sticks with it, has a bit of a superiority complex, thinks that their way is the best and everybody else needs to comply, chases their dreams with ambition, rebellious and hates authority, needs to open up a door for change to come in

Pisces: manipulative, doesn’t like direct confrontation, tries to drop subtle hints in the face of conflict rather than just spilling their guts, emotionally powerful, ambitious deep down, has huge dreams and grandiose ideals, afraid of failure, master procrastinators

My little morning spread! Still visiting home so am trying to take full advantage of the amount of food my mother has in her house hehe. 

Still writing papers, feeling like that is all I do now! I am getting kicked in the butt by my epistemology paper on phenomenal concepts…and I cannot wait to be done and over with it :|

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I hardly even have the energy to write this but here we go– I will restate some things again now that I have more information, and I’ll try to explain this as calmly as I can rather than how I did the very first time I found out this was happening.

THEY GAVE US LESS THAN A MONTH TO PAY $20,000.

We missed our mortgage payment in February. The mortgage is $3,200 each month, because they gave it to us for an insanely high rate. We’ve been able to keep up with it up until now but suddenly there’s been much less work and so we missed the February one.

This is the letter telling us to pay for February, plus $2,600 in “legal fees” that they added, totaling $6,000. 

The payments are meant to be automatic. In March, when we did have the money, they did not take it even though they were supposed to. My dad had even messaged them telling them to take it and they would not. They did this purposefully so that they could now have “two” months of “missed” payments over us. They need three months in order to be able to evict us.

There’s $6,400 in mortgage alone, not including the February “legal fees” or any that they probably also added for March. Originally, they had first demanded that we pay these overdue payments.

THEN, they decided to add April into it. Mortgage x 3 = $9,600. Within a span of few days, they keep changing their own story. They just keep adding to it!!! You can see that the very first letter was received on April 4. The most recent letter that I will show in a moment, is from April 18. In just these few days, they added so many more payments into it??? And now, since they keep changing their story, they have these three months on us!!!

Thanks to loans from friends, kind donations, and work of course, we were able to collect $6,000 and quickly rushed to the bank to create a bank draft (a very official cheque) for $6,000 and we quickly mailed it off to them. We wanted to pay them the $6,000 we had ASAP so that we could have paid something and they couldn’t evict us, right?

We fell into a short moment of calm where we thought we were safe from being evicted now. We paid $6,000 and they couldn’t evict us and we’d pay the rest as soon as we had it. Of course you know this didn’t last. THEY MAILED THE CHEQUE BACK. SAYING THAT THEY WOULDN’T ACCEPT IT UNLESS IT CONTAINED THE FEBRUARY, MARCH, AND APRIL PAYMENTS. If they want the money so badly shouldn’t they just accept the $6,000 and take the rest later? No, because then they KNOW they can’t evict us, and that’s EXACTLY what they are trying to do. THEY WANT THIS TO BE AS IMPOSSIBLE FOR US TO PAY AS POSSIBLE. They could have taken the $6,000 but then they are unable to evict us, and they want to evict us.

THEN, THEY ADD MAY.

Our mortgage payments are “officially” meant to be paid on the 2nd of each month, but my dad had agreed with them to pay on the 25th of each month. That is how it has been the entire time we have lived here and they know this. But suddenly, they decided that we need to pay for May as well, because if we were to pay on May 25th, that falls after their May 20th deadline. So they suddenly said the 2nd again because that’s how it is in the papers, even though they have agreed previously that the 25th was okay, and BAM THERE IS A 4TH MONTH ON US??? They are literally looking for every way they can to fuck us over.

This is the most recent letter, telling us to pay $20,000!!!!! How could they just go and suddenly change it to THIS??? Mortgage x 4 is $12,800, the rest is literally “LEGAL FEES” AND INTEREST THAT THEY KEEP STACKING ON US OUT OF NOWHERE. $5,400 is just for their lawyer who only sent us one letter and then proceeded to ignore and avoid us when we wanted to question him further!!

It is literally fucking evil how they are trying their hardest to make this unpayable for us. I don’t even think it’s about getting this money, or else they would have taken the $6,000 when we sent it to them. It is about making this unpayable for any person, so that they can take the whole house from us. They could have easily taken this $6,000 from us and taken the rest later, but they wouldn’t even accept it until it was the full $20,000 that they suddenly decided that they want. So many of that are just fees that they made up!!!!

This isn’t even counting other bills that we have to pay such as electricity and food.

It is so. Fucking. Wrong.

And my family is SO TERRIFIED.

Worst case scenario ? We will get evicted. We will be HOMELESS. IF, we have any money, we might be able to rent an apartment. Apartments are expensive and require 2 month’s rent upfront. We wouldn’t have enough bedrooms for all our family members. We wouldn’t have enough space to take most of our belongings. We wouldn’t be able to take ANY of our animals (2 dogs and 6 rescue cats) as no apartments near us allow animals (we checked) and even the shelters in the area are utterly horrible and careless (in addition to charging you per animal..) Most of our animals are unadoptable as well. And this is all IF we can even afford an apartment, IF we are left truly homeless, we’d still lose everything, on top of having nowhere to go to and social services possibly even taking my 10 and 6 year old siblings away.

THE ONLY REALISTIC OPTION FOR US is somehow paying this off, because we need to stay here long enough to sell this house. My house has been on the market for 3 weeks now and only one person has come to even view it so far, and wasn’t interested in buying it. If we can sell this house, which we definitely should be able to…with a little more time… Then we can pay off the full mortgage and move elsewhere, where we won’t have this problem again.

No, sueing is not a realistic option. How can we go against this entire corporation and their lawyers? Our own lawyers would cost thousands that we don’t have, court would take ages, and they would still evict us in the meantime. They know this. They know we are powerless against them.

My dad is working as hard as he can but his job is being very slow at the moment. He installs floors and normally at this time of year, he should be buried in work but for some reason he isn’t getting any. On top of that, his boss from the main store he works at hates him and purposefully does not give him work. The other 3 stores he is hired at simply are not giving him much to do.

I am applying to all the jobs I can but none are contacting me back. I am so frustrated. One job in particular nearby my house would have been the most perfect option for me and they hired someone else instead. I am still trying to search for a job but we also live in a kind of middle of nowhere area and I have limited transportation. I am trying my absolute best. I’m also doing art commissions - PLEASE consider getting one if you can!!!

My mom doesn’t speak a word of English, cooks and cleans constantly, and takes care of my young siblings every day, and yet is still searching for a job for herself… I have no idea how she will get one without being able to speak English or having any experience.

My parents don’t really have any friends/family in Canada. I have a very small family and they are all in Poland and very poor. We’re usually the ones sending them money every month. We’re even considering asking my grandma in Poland to take out a loan from the bank for us, but my mom is so embarrassed to ask her for fear of terrifying her too much (she hasn’t told her any of this so as to not stress her out…) and they are unlikely to even give my grandma a loan since she is poor and very old. We can’t really ask her for much help but we might just have to. Even if she is able to get a loan for us, we will still be far from our goal… But my mom thinks there’s no way the bank will give my grandma a loan.

We are literally doing everything we can and they are just trying their hardest to take this house from us… It’s sick. It’s horrifying. I never knew that people could be this completely evil. To think that within a span of just a few days they would change their own story like 3 times just to make this harder and harder for us…

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26/100 days of productivity. 20th May 2019.

Completed my homework.

Cleaned my room.

Did some Spanish flashcards on quizlet.

I swear i would kill for sleep😭. As always hope you all had a productive and happy day and if you didn't that's okay you always have tomorrow! ^.^

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Back to School: How to Get an A*/8 or 9 in an English Lit Essay!

Happy September, everyone!

As we all get our gears in motion to start a new year, I thought I would share my top tips for scoring the highest marks in English Literature essays. 

(P.S. Lots of these tips are applicable to other subjects too)

1. Don’t write about the character as if they are real

Unfortunately, this is a common error in English Lit essays. It is absolutely imperative to remember that a character is not a person, but is a construct of the writer in order to present an idea or theme. No matter the question, you should be linking your answer back to the writer’s ideas and theme of the text, even if it doesn’t seem obvious what the theme is on the first inspection of the question. Using the author’s name frequently in your essay will demonstrate that you recognise the character is not a real person - ‘Shakespeare portrays Macbeth as a tragic hero, as defined by Aristotle as…’

2. Don’t analyse the plot

Avoid analysing the plot or when things happen in the text. Don’t write ‘When X happens it makes us think Y’. Instead:

Analyse the writer’s use of language, structure and form to create meaning

Do a close language analysis of specific words/phrases, including a sound analysis (plosives, assonance, etc.)

Do a structural analysis of what happens when and why that’s important (Freytag’s pyramid)

Do an analysis of form (stage directions, dramatic monologue, etc.)

3. Keep your answer relevant throughout

You need to be explicitly answering the question - not going off on a tangent nor trying to change the question to suit an answer that you want to write. One way of avoiding this is by starting each paragraph with a topic sentence, summarising what that paragraph is going to be about and how it answers the question. Another method is simply by rewording the question into your answer at the start and end of every paragraph. At least. For greater impact, include synonyms of the word, which can also help with the readability of your answer.

4. Avoid PEE/PEEL/etc. where you can

Thousands of students are taught the same, basic Point-Evidence-Explain (or variant) analytical paragraph structure. If you want to stand out, show academic strength, and achieve the highest marks then you must break free from the chains of PEE! (This also applies for your introduction format. ‘In this essay, I will argue…’ gets pretty dull after reading it 100 times)

For my students, I will be teaching them to write What-How-Why paragraphs:

WHAT has the writer done?

HOW have they done it?

WHY have they done it/is it effective?

This way, your focus is always on why the writer has chosen to use that specific language/structure/form, but it allows you to be creative in crafting your response. Being able to discuss the ‘why’ of literature is the key to unlocking the highest grades. Reading through examiners’ reports this summer has made one thing clear - it is not enough to merely spot linguistic devices or structural features. You must explain why the writer has chosen them and why that is an effective choice (or not).

5. Avoid sweeping statements about context

The main advice here is to only include comments about the context of the text if it adds to the analytical point that you are making. They should not be a bolt-on sentence, but they should enhance your answer.

Further, sweeping claims like ‘All Jacobean women were oppressed by society’ is far too vague. On the other hand, a comment like ‘Lady Macbeth is a disturbing example of womanhood because she denies her gender at a time where the role of a woman was clear-cut, even patriarchal, in Jacobean society’ suggests that you have a greater understanding of how context can influence the writer’s choices.

6. A plan is your best friend

Always, always make time to plan your answer. A method I recommend is, first, circling the key words in the question (character/theme, what you are asked to do, where in the text you are asked to look, etc.). Secondly, write all of your ideas down onto the page, highlighting parts from the extract if you have that in front of you. Finally, select a judicious number of points that you are going to talk about (quality not quantity here) and number the order in which you are going to make them.

If you are writing a comparative essay, each paragraph must start and end with a comparative point about whatever it is you are comparing (characters/themes/etc.) I suggest the following format:

‘X is presented in both text A and text B. However, in A the author uses device 1 and 2 to demonstrate X. On the other hand, in B, the author demonstrates X via use of device 2 and 3.’ Then write one paragraph for each text. Repeat this again for another similarity. And again for a third - if you think that is appropriate.

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24|08|2020

Day 43 of My Summer Studying Challenge!

✨ 24th August ✨ Do you like wearing sunglasses?

sometimes i do but sometimes i don’t. i’ve never really worn them a lot tho because i prefer to see things normally even if it’s bright and tbh they annoy me a bit when i am wearing them

click on the photo for HQ and to see the pastel part of the title that always seems to disappear in pictures XD